2baware: A brilliant opportunity

Hello all!!!

I was recently fortunate to have completed an online self-awareness workshop called 2baware (www.2baware.net).  I wrote about how impressed I was with that workshop and how useful it was in a post a few weeks ago: https://livingmytruelife.com/2012/08/12/this-little-light-of-mine-im-learning-how-to-let-it-shine/

I have completed the workshop and I continue to use the tools I learned from within it.  I remember that when I am blaming someone for a circumstance, that I can look inside to see what is really going on, to find out what about the situation is making me uncomfortable, instead of making others responsible for how I feel.  I am really enjoying doing this, I find it empowering and it makes me feel nicer inside because I’m not outwardly blaming as much as I used to.

I also learned about how to stop and look at a situation objectively and subjectively, and to analyze it that way.  I find it pulls the plug on the heightened emotions, because when a situation is looked at objectively, it is never as intense as it seems when we are locked in the emotion.

The creator of this brilliant workshop, Ido Lanuel (www.idolanuel.com) is a fellow WordPress user and his personal story is awesome (like his blog and workshop)!  I suggest you check them out!  If you are interested in the workshop, you may try it for free with the following password: bradleez.  I was given 20 free workshop entrances to share with friends, family and fellow bloggers!  If this calls to you, if you want to be more self-aware and be equipped with brilliant tools and have fun while learning them, give the workshop a try!  You are totally worth the investment of time!!!



This little light of mine, I’m learning how to let it shine!

Today, right now, I am happy.  I am learning that happiness only comes from inside, that the more I blame the outside world for how I am feeling, the more miserable I will be.  I am learning that the more I can look inside and know that I am perfect, that I am love, that I am beautiful, that I am gentle and kind, then life will be easier and smoother.  I have been so blessed to have so many positive influences in my life lately that have helped show me the way to shine my light and to live from my love and my heart!

My last appointment with the healer and guide our family sees was really pivotal for me.  It helped me to see how closed off I still was, how I was still in protection mode and when you are in that mode, you are living in fear and the world becomes scary and then (at least for me), the blame and anger and resentment come and take over.  When you can live from your heart, from your love, from your light, you are open, you are receptive, you feel what goes on around you and it passes through, washes right over you.  I was slightly reeling, okay not slightly but very reeling after that session. I started to see how and where I was closed off and how that was causing me to be so outwardly blaming, when really what I was doing was feeling vulnerable and small and thinking I needed to protect myself (and my young daughter) from being hurt and feeling rejected.  I am learning that I create my experiences of life and that I can spend time giving up my power to thoughts, but that they will always be there, pulling me away from my heart or that I can consciously choose my heart over those thoughts.

I recently found a new self-awareness program called 2baware (www.2baware.net).  I came across it when a fellow WordPress user liked one of my posts, so I went to his blog and was astounded!  It is super exciting to meet someone else (I am meeting more and more!) who is committed to living a life of fun, of love and of moving away from fear.  I had the privilege of trying out the workshop he created as one of the followers of his blog (www.idolanuel.com) and I am super duper enjoying it.  It is a 20 day program of self-awareness, that is carried out in this awesome fantasy land and you get to be the main character in it.  It has given me so much guidance for looking within, for seeing where I outwardly place blame for my experiences, what I am truly scared of and finding the root of that fear, learning what stories I tell myself and how those limit me in my life and helping me to look at a situation both objectively (I dropped my cup of coffee) and subjectively (I dropped my cup of coffee again, I’m such an idiot, no wonder I can never do anything, and what that really means is that I’m scared no one loves me and I’m worthless).  I have so benefited from the objective/subjective exercise!  Yesterday I totally panicked because a man was talking to my daughter at the grocery store when I couldn’t be around her.  I was feeling like she was threatened and that I couldn’t do anything because I was trying to pay and pack the groceries and I was totally panicking, it was amazing.  I was inside, watching myself, saying to myself, “wow you are really freaking out,” but I didn’t feel like I could stop it.  I talked to her about it afterwards and I asked her if she was comfortable and she said yes. I told her that she can walk away from anyone if she is uncomfortable and she agreed. I asked her why she had looked uncomfortable and then it dawned on me and I said, “were you uncomfortable because you could feel how much I was trying to protect you,” and she said yes.  I was floored.  Here was another situation where I was stuck in protection mode. I was grateful to have seen it, then I did the 2baware exercise and I looked at it objectively and I laughed, “A man talked to my daughter at the grocery store.”  And then I wrote what I was really feeling and I could see how it was a program, a story, and how it started running the moment that incident happened.   I was so grateful to be able to see it, uncomfortable to see what has been running my show for ages, but excited at the same time.  There is sometimes that moment of discomfort as I look deep inside and get honest with myself, sometimes I want to run and hide more, but thankfully my desire to be the true me, to live my true life, prevails and I go in deep and take a look.  I’d rather do that than be running these useless subconcious programs.

I’m gave the  super abridged version of 2baware, but what it comes down to is that it is a brilliant program that has already benefited me tremendously and I’m just on day 8.  I am super grateful to have found this workshop when I so really needed it.  It was quite divine timing actually and I know it is a true gift.  I look forward to more transformations and shifts as I continue for the 20 days.  Thank you Ido.  If you are looking for a guided and cool way to become more aware, I highly recommend it.

I’ve also started doing Kundalini yoga.  I went to the Radiant Child Yoga (www.childrensyoga.com) teacher training in July for my kids class Playing From The Heart: Kids Connect (www.playingfromtheheartkidsconnect.com) and I learned Radiant Child Yoga with the founder and creator, Shakta Kaur Khalsa. She is a beautiful and radiant woman, who taught us with all of her experience and creativity and she taught us Kundalini yoga for ourselves at the same time.

The definition of Kundalini yoga from Wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini_yoga):

Kundalini yoga is a physical, mental and spiritual discipline for developing strength, awareness, character, and consciousness. Practitioners call Kundalini yoga the yoga of awareness because it focuses primarily on practices that expand sensory awareness and intuition in order to raise individual consciousness and merge it with the Infinite consciousness of God.

I have felt a huge difference in my body and in my awareness both during and after doing this yoga. I’ve been using Shakta’s book: http://www.amazon.ca/Whole-Way-Library-Kundalini-Yoga/dp/0789467704/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1344803015&sr=8-2 and I’m really enjoying it.  It is very well laid out and explained, even for a beginner person like me.  I’ve done yoga in the past, but not this kind and not regularly.  I actually feel a difference in my body, I feel the energy moving through, I feel the tingling, I feel more grounded and more aware and I feel stronger and more limber.  I am super excited to have found this and to have committed (and with family discussions!) to find time during the week for me to wake up and start the day by connecting to myself and to the greater of life outside me and within me.

I know this yoga works, but I had confirmation the other day when I did the yoga kriya (yoga set) for “The Essence of Self” and a few minutes later, my 3 year old daughter Zara said, “oh there, now there is more light in our house (she meant light like our inner light and radiance),” and I asked her why and she said, “it’s your light mommy, it’s shining out now and it’s all around the house.”  Do you need any more confirmation than that?

Thank you to the universe, for bringing me what I need and the people I’ve needed to continue on this beautiful path of self-awareness, of finding my inner truth and living my true life, instead of that one of fear and hiding that I was trapped in for 31 years.  Thank you to everyone who has supported me and loved me, even when I was so scared and so trapped and hiding and locked in fear.  With much love and many blessings!!

Using the love to find calm

I am grateful for much in my life!  So much has happened in the past year and it’s difficult to comprehend sometimes just how different I am.  I am different, but I guess I’m just getting back to who I really am, instead of living from all the fear, guilt, helplessness and everything else that I grew to know as the true me.

It really is super exciting for me to learn about the real me, my true self and to learn about how to live from my heart, from my truth, so that I don’t get caught and lost like I had in the past.  One of my favorite things to do is to breathe into my heart and bring in all the light and love from the sun, from the universe, from my higher self and breathe it down into my body and feel it.  I love feeling my body start to tingle, to recognize that I am connecting to it, that I am in a sense coming home to live here, in my body, instead of being scattered all around.  I really love feeling the calm and the beauty inside when this happens, I am starting to use that feeling as a guide, that when I’m not feeling it, I’d better stop and breathe and come back to me.  I don’t remember every time, but it is getting easier and it makes such a difference!

I had a beautiful opportunity the other day to teach this to a little girl who was distracted, uncomfortable and in pain.  She had just participated in the kids class that I teach called Playing From the Heart: Kids Connect (www.playingfromtheheartkidsconnect.com) and we had shared a picnic together and then we were all playing at the park.  She was upset about her hands and her mom was trying to get her to rinse them off in the splash pad because they were full of sand.  She seemed quite agitated and she couldn’t quite hear her mom, she was too upset about it all.  The girl was close to me so I asked her if she had a “bobo” on her hand because that would be quite uncomfortable with sand in it.  She stopped and looked at me and was calm for a moment, then they went back to trying to rinse it off.  She ran away.  When she came back, she was standing right in front of me.  I asked her if she could pretend like she was holding a fruit in her hand like we did in the class (for more information about the fruit meditation we did, please check out my other website at the following link!: http://playingfromtheheartkidsconnect.com/2012/07/22/using-the-fruit-meditation-at-home/).

from: http://www.thelivingvision.com/blog/?m=200808

She cupped her hands around the imaginary fruit.  I let her know that all the love she sent to the fruit, she could now send to her hands to bring the love and calm to her hands so she could feel more comfortable.  She seemed ready to do it, so I asked her if I could help her too and she agreed.  So she held her hands together and I put mine around hers without touching them.  I closed my eyes and sent all my love to my hands and then out to her hands. I could totally feel it going out and over to her hands, it was super awesome, super loving, super beautiful.  I opened my eyes and asked her if she could feel that and she had an interesting look on her face, so I kept doing it and then I knew it was time to stop, so I did.  Her mom was right there and I explained to her that we were doing the fruit meditation and sending the love to our hands to ease her daughter’s discomfort.  I looked at her daughter and asked her again if she felt better, if she had felt the love and she loudly breathed out and she had these huge shivers, and she did that a couple of times.  It was super cool, she looked so calm, so incredulous and so happy all at once.  It was such a gift for me to be able to offer that to her because in the past, I have been so closed off and so scared of uncomfortable situations.   She stood around me for a minute and then it was time for her to go and she left.  I was sitting there smiling so much, so excited to be in a place where I can pass on these tools that I have had to learn for myself to be comfortable again.

Thank you to that little girl for that beautiful opportunity!