I started on a journey of awakening, well, I guess I’ve always been on this journey, in this whole life time and many other past life times. That is our ultimate goal as humans, to wake up past the unconsciousness and to remember the truths that we all still have in our hearts, deeper down or closer to the surface, depending on where you are in your personal journey.
I feel like I’ve always had this inner awareness, this inner voice/presence that would guide me, that would sometimes look at the world in shock, and that sometimes propelled me beyond what I thought was possible. I’ve also though, been super weighed down by the collective unconsciousness, by the ego that has many of us in its grip. My true journey of realizing that I was that inner presence, that inner voice, and not the ego, started last April 2011, when I had my first healing session with Jean Brazeau here in Ottawa, Ontario. I was lead to Jean, whom I found because she is listed on The Journey website as a practitioner, when our family naturopath was trying to help me on the path to health, and she told me I had to clear out some emotional blocks to truly heal and that the Journey process would help me. I have continued this deep work with Jean (which is more than the just the Journey I have come to learn!) of looking within, finding what is there that is preventing me from living my true life, and I have been constantly astonished at what I have found. Many of my past blog posts have been about what I have found on my deep inner explorations. This post will be about how I see the world now as I awaken, with mindfulness, with presence and with a new awareness that is awesome and sometimes shocking because of what I am finally able to see and sense. Here are a few of my latest observations:
We have gone so far beyond what any of us ever wanted for ourselves on this beautiful planet. How did we get to the place where sod farms, flower farms, tree farms and pumpkin farms were ever okay? I had never ever questioned where sod comes from, and then one day I saw this huge truck driving by and it said sod farm right across it. The realization hit me so hard! We have chopped down trees just to grow green grass that we need to cut every week when it’s hot and that we spray chemicals on to keep it uniform and free from weeds. Whoever decided what a weed was? Is this really how we want the world to look or are we needing to keep what we can see around us perfect because of the fear of how imperfect and how unloveable we are inside that is driving us?
Why are we using precious land just to grow pumpkins that will be carved and thrown out? The same for tree farms for Christmas trees? I love traditions!! I super do, but at some point, we all have to breathe in together, one big collective breath and let it out and say, “okay, we are so many on this planet, maybe Christmas trees and carving pumpkins are a bit wasteful, maybe we can create more planet friendly traditions?”
When are tons of flowers at funerals and weddings going to cease being important and necessary? Where are they growing all those flowers that are in every single grocery store in Canada? Can we not just keep them in florist shops, to keep the numbers lower, to keep the quality high? Yes, they may still be grown in the same way, but not in the same immeasurable quantity. When did we decide that planting a seed and watching flowers grow in our garden was too slow, that we need to be able to go to a garden centre and to buy flowers that are already in bloom. I know that Canadian winters are very long but there is the option of planting bulbs in the fall and getting to watch them poking out of the soil in the early spring, I really enjoy that!
I’m not necessarily saying any of these things are inherently good or bad, but it’s more that they are observations from an awakened, aware and more mindful perspective than I ever had before. I’m wondering if what is being offered to us and what we are buying, is what we truly want? I’m starting to feel the force and the pull behind advertisements too and I’m having to be mindful in stores and even just when I’m checking my email to ensure that I am not being led by the advertisements instead of by what I actually need. Are we just so used to buying and buying and buying (and being influenced by ads to buy more too) and having more and more, or are more and more of us ready and willing to look inside to find the source of that need, so we can slowly stop our unconscious habits?
When did Halloween and Christmas and Valentines Day get so commercial, so overloaded and so overdone? I went to the party store today to buy balloons and I was so overwhelmed by the size of the store and the vast amounts of “party” merchandise they offered. There was this huge blow up monster with blood marks on it’s blow up teeth at the front of the store and I was beyond shocked. When did we all get so senseless (I mean when did we all get to a place where that isn’t horrible and scary) that we think that our kids need that for Halloween? They even sell “severed” hands that you can put in your trunk so that the hand hangs out the back of the trunk. Again, that just seems so senseless to me. I pray that my 3 year old daughter doesn’t see one of those. I know that I can explain it to her, but should I have to?
We have taken the need to be the best, to have the best, to shock and awe, to impress so far that we now have to have a party store the size of Costco for our parties. I just wanted balloons! There were aisles of goody bag things, some even pre-packaged, like we are so mindless that we can’t be creative and find some little things that would delight children to have, instead of tons of stuff that costs 35 cents so we can buy a lot? When did a “Happy Thanksgiving” banner become important? Wow.
In an age when we in Canada (I can really only write about what I see in my own city, but I feel comfortable generalizing it to my own country, but no further really:)) are starting to see the importance of composting, recycling, buying local, eating organic, meeting a farmer, using public transportation, why are the big businesses not catching on? Why is every new store being build three times the size that it really needs to be? I would imagine at some point that we all will shop at the smaller stores because we like customer service, we like knowing the name of the owner, like how it used to be. I remember being a kid and going to my baseball coach’s party store to get balloons. That was always very special for me. I sound like I’m 75, but I’m only 32 and things have changed so much in my short life time.
I know more and more of us are wanting that connection and closeness with others wherever we go. Our world needs more connection with actual people, instead of just through texting and facebook and twitter. Again, it’s not that any of these things are bad, it’s more the way we are using them, the reasons we are so dependent on them.
We are all beautiful beings of light who are so connected to each other, to the divine, to the source and the more we teach that, the more of it is available through the internet, through groups, through workshops, the more of us will awaken to the beauty within and the world will change. We’ll go back to helping our neighbors, to having more time as we pull out of the so called “rat race”, we’ll have more time for our children, family members and friends, and competition won’t be driving us any more. I look forward to the upcoming new world age, as we step into it and awaken, open up more, and move towards love and peace and we leave the unconsciousness, the fear and the violence behind.
Peace to all.