I have been so astounded lately at who I really am! I’ve also been astounded at who I thought I was before and how I tried sooooo hard to put myself into all these different moulds that I thought society, family, friends, teachers and anyone really, wanted me to be.
I had a profound realization this week that I don’t have to be anything or anyone but me. I don’t need to have a mould that is pre-formed, what if I was just me, and that I was fluid, graceful, formless, without boundaries? What would happen if I didn’t need to identify with everything society has dictated that we should care about or be? What if I were to just stop pretending and allow the grace of my light to shine bright and guide me as my true self, without needing to constrict and contort myself any longer?
What if I discovered that I could be a vegan, vegetarian, carnivore, omnivore, whatever-vore all at the same time? What if I were just to tune into my body on any given day and ask my body what it needs and eat accordingly? These past two weeks, I have been eating so many vegetables and that was when it hit me, that I could follow the rhythms of my body and be a vegan for a week and then a vegetarian for two, and then eat meat for a week and allow the body to guide me. What if I didn’t have to limit myself to a category of eating styles? I was so excited about that realization!! For years and years, I felt tormented about food choices! Could I allow myself to be a chocolate bar lover without shame? Would it be okay if I didn’t only eat organic food? What if I ate something processed once and awhile? Would that make me a bad person? Now I’m seeing that I am free to make my own choices without having to limit myself to a category. I’ve used food as the example, but it stretches far beyond food.
What if I could clean the house because I enjoy it, not just because I am the woman of the house? It’s the same for cooking! What if I could approach all aspects of my life with the same detachment from needing to categorize my behaviors and the roles I play?
Who I am really underneath all the pretense? Who are we all?
As the shift happens on our planet, the shift to peace, higher levels of consciousness, and opening to our true power, I think we’ll all start dropping the pretenses and we’ll realize that really, we are all the same, we are all wanting to be free, to have the space to create, to experiment, to follow our hearts, to not conform to programs and hard rules, but to be free to fly, to soar, to be. I am ready to be me, not the me I always thought I had to be me, but the true me, beyond it all!