Have you ever stopped to wonder where you live from?
Do you live from a place of:
- leave me the f&*k alone
- f&*k you
- you can’t control me
- who do you think you are
- please love me, please see me
- why even bother
- I’m not worthy
- I’m useless
- I can’t do this any more?
I used to and I know I still kind of do, not consciously, but there is definitely an energy within me that is about all of these things.
Do you ever wonder why the same sh&t keeps happening over and over? Do you wonder why you are attracting it? There is so much about energy that I am just learning. Because I’ve had all of these energies in my body, from upsetting childhood experiences, for example, those energies have been unconsciously influencing my life. I am learning that all of those thoughts, emotions and energies are not me, I am so much more, I am full of love in my heart, in my core. We all are.
I’ve had the brilliant opportunities to see how limiting those energies have been for me, for my daughter (because she feels them and responds to them), for my relationship with my husband, in my past jobs, etc. because of the healing work I’ve done with Jean Brazeau. I’ve learned how and where those energies came from (from my parents, from the world, from my family, from my hurt 3 year old self, from past lives) and I’ve worked with Jean to get to the core of them, to release them, so that I can be me, Bradlee, pure and simple. The freedom I now have in my heart because of these releases is indescribable, it is pure bliss, it is brilliant, it is like the wind is always blowing and I’m a huge tall ship and I never have to worry about adjusting my sails, it’s like the glass is always full, it’s like I could dance in bare feet on hot sand and still look graceful, it’s like I’m a pastry chef even though I don’t have all the tools, it’s like my body is finally just my body, it is beautiful and it just is the way it is, it’s like I’m finally me, all of me, not all of that list expressing itself through me, trying to fool me into thinking it was the real me.
So the next time:
- you want to hide from the world, from your family, from yourself
- someone asks you if you need help and you say no, it’s okay and try to manage by yourself and you struggle
- you wonder why life is so hard
- you push someone away or you avoid their eyes
- feel so alone even though there are people around
- say hurtful things because you are really hurting inside
take a breath and know that none of it is you. You are gold, you are beautiful. Breathe and let it pass through and know that if you want, you can get to the core and release those feelings, because that’s all they are, it’s not you. There are so many ways to get to the core, to find the peace, to get the release, to get to know you again, all of you, all the parts of you that you were taught weren’t good enough for the world, and you will actually know that you are perfect the way you are, that you never did anything wrong. I am choosing me, not the sh*t, not the energy, not the withdrawing from the world, I choose me, for me, for my family, for the world, so we can all see we are beautiful and that freedom from all we thought was us, is possible. I am working with Jean, you may choose another format, whatever works for you. My husband Robbin works with Jean and has now become a Reconnective healer, which is a different way of accessing the truth. Find what works for you, get to know you. You are ridiculously worth it. And then you can live from the love. I’m there and I’m going all the way to the pure love, may you go there too.