Looking up at the stars

Looking up at the stars

I turn my life over.

I see them shining and twinkling

and standing out in the dark sky

and they make me want to stand out

in a similar way in my own life;

to breathe deep, fill with courage

and to be myself, no matter what.

 

Looking up at the stars,

I know there is more to me,

to my life and to my choices.

 

Looking up at the stars and breathing in the cold air,

I feel like I should keep reaching up

so that I can bring heaven down

to share with everyone I meet.

 

Looking up at the stars,

I dig in deeper and commit more fully to my life,

to myself and to a truth that the stars

shine so purely.

 

Looking up at the stars, I remember

that I am already free and that I am

perfect just the way I am.

 

Looking up at the stars,

I hear my inner voice more clearly

and it tells me I am on the right track,

that I can relax and know that I am already great

and all will come in good time.

 

Looking up at the stars, I breathe

more easily and know that all is well.

 

Looking up at the stars, I know

that I am already home and there is peace

within me.

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Evolving From Within

I am looking at myself less in the mirror lately.

It is almost as if I am scared to see the deeper me

who is emerging from within me,

like the human part of me is feeling ashamed that she is still hanging around, and

wallowing in her old ways of panic, fear and despair.

 

I love you dear one.

There is nothing to fear or to be ashamed of.

You are a super miracle and I am so honoured to be

journeying through life with you.

Because of you, I have my finger on the pulse

Of human suffering.

Because of you, I am learning that living on the surface

is like constantly riding the waves of life.

Because of you, I can feel the light of God emerging

from within me, teaching me to be the ocean

instead of riding the waves.

Because of you, I know it can be scary to be authentic,

real and unlimited and vulnerable.

Because of you, I know it can be hard to say I love you

without fear of rejection.

Because of you, I am me.

Because of you, I love you.

 

It is time to shine dear one, and there is nothing wrong

with wanting to hide and get comforted.

Come home to me and nestle in close, you don’t need

to look outside for comfort any longer.

I am here.  Patiently waiting.  Loving you and offering my

comfort, from the inside, out to you.

No more solutions can be found out there.

It’s only you and me and it is a miracle to know this.

You are a miracle and so am I.

So let us merge as one and emerge together as One;

One who can shine the light through the darkness

for the ones who are still looking outside of themselves

for that union of divine perfection.

It is within, and only within, and I am here,

crying tears for you, for us, for the One who will emerge

as we merge.

 

May our union be magical for all hearts.

Blessings – A Turning Point

How could I not have known how worthy I am of receiving?

How could I not have seen my true light and value?

How could I have spent the last 36 years without constantly honouring and bowing before the divinity that moves through me, that I am?

 

May I remember to bless myself, to love myself, to nurture myself and to honour myself.

May I eat food consciously and with gratitude.

May I stretch my beautiful body and feel the strength and grace in my muscles.

May I thank my mind for all the beautiful thinking it does for me.

May I appreciate my joints for bending and staying healthy and lubricated.

May I honour the tremendous amount of work that my organs, skin and bodily systems complete, without ever taking a break.

May I look at myself in the mirror and know that my body temple is magnificent and that it houses my bright and shiny soul who wants to come out to play and to love and to dance with all of creation.

May I remember to thank my heart, for beating and for leading me into this new territory of being open and vulnerable.

May I celebrate the fierce passion arising within me, the one that makes me feel like I have the power to ignite that same fire within the bellies and hearts of all.

May I honour myself so much that I never once question whether I should be authentic or not.

May my heart be light and may I nourish myself with love, healthy food, prayer, chanting, nature, dance and wonderful company as never before.

May every choice I make and every breath I take be rooted in love and gratitude and reverence for the being that I am.

May I always remember that I am worth it and that it is never a sacrifice to stop and take better care of all of my precious self.

Namaste and Wohoo, all at once : )

 

Note from me: I listened to the Guided Meditation for Conscious Eating from Ramdesh Kaur’s meditation CD called the Body Temple. It opened me up to all the ways that I could and wanted to honour myself more deeply.  It was a deeply transformational experience that led me to hearing the words above in my head.

I see you

Sitting in a dark corner

wishing, hoping, hating.

I see you in the dark.

From where I sit, there

is light all around you,

but you can only see the darkness.

My dear one,

stand up and

step out of the darkness.

With one gentle I love you to your heart,

to your shattered innocence,

it gets easier to stand up.

No more seclusion,

no more punishment and doubt.

Rise up, dear one, rise up

and honour the magnificence that you are.

 

Note from me: my heart gave me these words a few hours after a conversation I had with someone.  I was driving and I felt a lot of pressure in my chest and I realized that I needed to write some words down.  After I wrote them, I felt a lot better and I knew that these words were my heart’s way of sending healing to all those who felt the same as that person I talked to, which is exactly how I used to feel.

Say yes to vulnerability

Say yes to vulnerability.

Say yes to all the ways you thought you shouldn’t be.

Say yes to being honest.

Say yes to admitting you are struggling.

Say yes to choosing love over fear.

Say yes to peace.

Say yes to having your walls knocked down.

Say yes and thank you to the fear  that wants to keep you safe.

Say yes to having your safe-haven opened and exposed.

Say yes to you;

All that is waiting for you is you

and more love than you ever imagined possible.

You are very worthy of saying yes to.

 

-Thanks for reading.  You are worthy.

 

Me – A Poem

In the name of celebrating me and welcoming home all of me, I wrote this poem about myself.  May I remember each day to honour and cherish the one I am, and may this poem inspire you to do the same. 

We are all worthy and we all matter, we just have to remember that no one can make us believe that we are worthy and that we matter, we have to be ready to step into ourselves, one little step at a time, and then we’ll always know our worth. 

Me – A Poem

A golden, elegant light shines brightly.

It calls to others with its brilliance, peace and patience.

It says

There is nothing to fear dear one,

It is safe for you to come home now.

It opens its arms wide and from its heart

Shines a swirling rainbow of shimmering light

And all who see it melt into the tenderness

Of their own hearts and

Remember that they too are brilliant

Beautiful and golden.

 

The light shines from within me.

I see it in the ever increasing softness in my face

In the tender and sweet curves of my body

And in my gentle and caring smile.

My body grows stronger and gentler

From basking in the light of its own soul.

 

I am a woman

I am strength

I am power

I am gentleness

I am the whisper and the yell

I am the waterfall and the beautiful pool at the bottom where the water rests after its tremendous and crashing descent

I am an angel

 

I am the one who holds a lantern and calls to those lost in the pits of despair and hell.

Come follow me, I say.

Come follow me.

I am only going to lead you home to heaven, for it lies within your own heart

And it has been waiting for you all along to turn inward.

I can show you the way, because I know it from having suffered.

Follow me dear one, you are safe now.

 

I am emerging and learning.

I am grace in form.

Namaste.

 

 

 

The end of living a “falsely perfect” life

I have been striving to live a perfect life for a very long time.  While I am only 36 years old, I feel much older at times because of the weight that this need for perfection has been on my shoulders and heart.

Over the last few weeks I have felt angry.  I have felt angry at myself for pushing down my power and my strength, all in the name of living this falsely perfect life that had no need or want for power or strength. I defined “falsely perfect” as the need to always be nice, to be able to say that “yes, things are great,” whenever asked, to not ever get mad or be “mean, and to have things so perfectly organized and arranged so that I could feel good. What I have started to see is how exhausting this way of living has been for me, as well as limiting and frustrating!

I was lying in bed this morning and I felt myself lifting up inside, like I was being lifted to a higher level of awareness and freedom and potential.  A few hours later, I was seething mad, like I wanted to yell and scream and break things, so when I lay down to rest and breathe, I said, “I surrender this false and limiting way of living.  I surrender the belief that only certain ways of existing are perfect.  I surrender the inner critic and judge.”  I was also feeling what it felt like as I was saying those things, so I was using my feelings as guide about what to do.  It was amazing because it was like all the anger I have felt about forcing myself to live in this falsely perfect was guiding me to free myself.  It was like that part of me rose up and helped me to say, “ENOUGH,” and that gave me the knowledge and strength to free myself from this pretend prison and to welcome back all parts of me.

I saw myself smashing down those prison walls and I felt rising, falling and melting within me, almost like the parts of me that I was surrendering (and the prison walls) were being absorbed, pulled into my heart, bounced around, healed and released to be free.

Ahhhh, deep breath : )

Here I am, an hour after crashing down my prison walls and I felt the need to write about it.  I feel like I have all of this energy within me and it still wants to crash through life and push things out of the way, because it’s been buried down deep within me for so long.  I am so interested and keen to get to know these parts of myself, and get to know their passions and interests and desires!   I feel like I unknowingly buried my strength and power in an attempt to live a “good girl” kind of life, and now all I care about is living authentically and crashing down all the walls of falsehood that exist within me and around me.  I know I won’t physically crash things down, but I think that me and my newfound power and strength will become good friends and that I will have much renewed energy in the coming days, weeks and months as this change settles within me.  I am very excited to see what happens in my life as I meet each new day and each breath with a more integrated and united me.

May we all be blessed with the clarity to see where we have been unknowingly limiting ourselves and with the courage to break down those walls!